Shut the door already

I think i need to shut the door on a friendship...its unhealthy..heres the story....(this dates back to 2001) .I dated this guy for a year and a half...thinking we were in love..Well was i wrong..the whole time we dated he was cheating on me behind my back with this girl i know..i think i went temporarily insane. Im serious i went nuts...i wished them nothing but misery...i dont know who i hated more him or her...so a few years later after not talking to them..i got a call from her saying how sorry she was and how bad she felt...Boo fucking who...then me being so frickin forgiving...forgave her...lol...like what an idiot i am. Everyone that knows me asks me WTF. I just say lifes to short to be angry..which is true..,but then i think back and remember all the shit and hard times i had to deal with because of her i say fuck that shit. I went to visit her Saturday night...just to get outta town and have some fun...and i met this guy i talk to online...(sweetheart btw) we played pool and had some drinks...well she decided she was tired and went home...THANKS BY THE WAY! i came all that way to see her and she fucken left me there...so i thought screw it..im gonna have fun any ways ...the other 2 people we were with decided they were tired and went home...so it was just my guy friend and me...we went to this bar and had more drinks and conversation...Good times i say. So at this point we were a both on the drunk side...so we went back to Her house...passed out....woke up at 730 am to go pee...and she started freaking on me...why did you bring a stranger into our house...blah blah blah...i thought fuck you bitch ya left me at the bar with some strange guy.. and he was drunk...why ask for a DUI....After i gave her a peice of my mind... i said fuck it and drove home at 8 in the morning..i think i was half drunk...and it was super foggy. got home and passed out....but the thing i want her to know is that im tired of the way you treat people...the way you think is fucked...and all the hurt you caused me i say FUCK YOU! go to hell and dont come back. you and your preicious husband can both go fuck yourselves...im tired of you being all self rightcious... your nothing but a cheating whore that the only way to get ahead in life is to hurt people that get in your way...well right now i feel you need to hear how i feel and im offically slamming the door on this unhealthy relationship...what you did to me was not only rude and ignorant...but selfish and pathetic. Hope you the best outta life ...and may KARMA bite you two right in the ass!

Its Fuck you Friday! (WARNING LABEL) lol

can i have a fuck you friday? i just wanna say fuck you to Jaret...thanks for the 6 drunk dials last night....just so you know im not your driver take home booty call....if you want to hang out with me call at a decent hour. Had you called me and said hey im in town with my friends ..how about after your done work come pick me up i would have totally done that .......but NO! so i didnt answer any of his calls. i said screw you! gotta show him who's boss from the start so he doesnt pull that shit.

Fuck you to the "Brown Guy" that pissed on my car...you know how hard it is to get sand off your car? You wonder why us "white" people dont like you...cause you treat women like shit! Go back to your own counrty and treat your own bitches like shit! SO FUCK YOU!

Fuck you to the new bartender....i cant stand you....your annoying. I wanna fire your ass...but noone else is there to fill in. So im just gonna put up with you! Fuck!

Fuck you cheap pricks...just so you know when your in the service indusrty tips arent mandatory but we work hard to make sure your fricken happy....So there appriciated....and just so you know..everytime you dont tip your server...a puppy dies...

Fuck you Na Na for not coming down as expected...BOOOOOO!

So now thats off my chest i wanna say fuck me for being so bitchy.

See ya next friday!



Ok now thats out...feel so much better!

Happy Halloween!

So this brings us to Halloween...the one time a year you can be someone else...i was a Mile High Captain. But the question is...AM I? I had alot of opportunity's to join...but im not. Hey ive got alot of time to join..lol..and my SEXY DATE JARET! he was a spartan....he looked so hawt in a dress...I told him that we would role play at a future date with these costumes...i would love to show up at his place dressed up in my costume and show his some fun times...you know mother nature..she always picks a fine time to show her ugly face...lol...(if ya know what I mean)

This is Pam...she had a wiked costume...she is a make up artist...

We had a great time that night...

Jaret is so fun to hang out with...he loves the camera....just like me...

Tannis wanted to come out to play too...so i told her to make a costume outta the one that didnt fit me...and hers turned out awesome...

So 2 mile high club Captains meet 2 70's pornstars...lol...made for a great picture...

I had a hard time keeping my hands off him...hes so sweet and kinda says the right things at the right moments....i really enjoy his company. We got super drunk and had a blast doing it!
Thats my night in a nutshell...till next year!

Ladies and gentleman....

Im proud to introduce you to the infamous JARET....i went down to calgary on Saturday night to meet the parents and friends. We started out at Jarets friends Mikes and Cindy's house. We drank and ate steak...then it was off to the bar. Had a wiked time i guess. I blacked out so im going on what Jaret is telling me....supposedly im a wiked dancer...i fell onto the dancefloor..haha..im kinda embarrased about that but WHATEVER i was shitfaced. I dont even really recall dancing. So as the night was coming to a close we stepped outside and got a hotdog....K..really dont even remember this part at all. Mine had ketchup and that was it. Boo..cause i love mustard and relish...hell loaded would have been awesome too...so we walked across the street to our hotel and made nice with 6 cowboys in the elevator. Teehee i wonder what i said. So now the really intresting part...went up to our room and i guess i gave Jaret a strip show....k we havent even made sweet passionate love yet..and i guess i did good.! Once i was naked ..i put on his leather coat and my black boots and was lookin all sexy for myself...hahah...i wish i remember what i was doing..DAMMIT! So after that we went into the bedroom and we both just passed out...what a night..!

Next morning comes along and theres me all naked wondering WHAT THE FUCK! haha. ...then i saw the clothes all over the room and kinda had a feeling something went on...but no hes such a gentleman he told me what happened and we both had a good laugh....slept for another hour then it was time to check out. I wasnt feeling so great...we went to get our cars and went to this little dinner and had some breakfast. I oredered toast. and had one bite. Had a glass of OJ and decided it was time to puke.! so after that i felt way better. Off to meet the parents...HOW AWESOME ARE THEY! They were so sweet.. they sure love Jaret and his brother Jonas. we all ate dinner and drank good wine.
So its time to go home...we stop to get gas...and he fills my tank for me ...and then looks at me and says..i didnt get enough cuddle time can you come spend the night with me...im like awwwwe. this guy is so sweet...im so happy to have met him...finally (i know i say this everytime) but i think this one is sweet and a keeper. Now the unveiling....(i just showed tannis and she liked the screen) hes sexy!

Its foxy friday...

And ive decided to be the fox...took some bad ass pics of myself...gotta love self portraits..haha.

Things with Jaret are going slow...which is fine...i dont wanna rush things. Havent seen him since monday...cause he works nightshift..and by the time he wakes up its time to go to work..but we talk everyday . I really enjoy the conversations we have. hes so sweet!! and he has a good sence of humor. ha makes me laugh..which is somthing i need outta a guy. Were planning on hanging out Saturday night...i think im gonna make him dinner...and then just see what the night has to offer.


Wish me luck....who knows this one just might be the one...haha i know i say that about them all..but hey ya never know...

I just noticed my blog is becoming my dating diary..haha.. Just wait till things get serious...how saucy it might get...so for all you anal retentive bitches...you might wanna stop reading now...

I met a boy....i met a boy....

and hes sexy...and single...and doesnt have baggage...finally ...I wish i had a pic to show you all...but im sure if you wait a bit one will show up...Im just sittin here wondering whats gonna happen next...He lives in sylvan lake...owns his own house...has a full time job thats hes been at forever. So hopefully this one is a keeper...ill keep you posted.

In other news...nothing is going on! haha....Have a great day ladies.!

its about time...

My favorite people in the world are amazing..i love them. I was adopted into this family and there all so special to me. Tannis has a heart of gold and i love her dearly. She does such nice things for me and i dont know how i could ever repay her.

...so here it goes the rants...hahahahaha....Tim and i broke up..hes a slob ....druggie...loser...has no respect for women...ya we went away in love..thinking im gonna marry this one(puke) and came back disgusted and revolted by the kinda person i saw . He may look all good on the outside..but inside hes a a lost soul..has no clue!

So single again i say...i signed up for Plenty of Fish...its a stoooopid dating site...so im going thru all these profiles and come across this one called Shoots13 ..wow hes pretty hot...so i message him and were talking for a few weeks make a plan to meet.........he stood me up.....k....i can understand he drove all night from Williams lake...so we make it for the next night...oh and the fucker had the nerve to stand me up again....then ..at 3am he calls me...like get bent ya fucker! i text messaged him the next day cause i didnt feel he deserved a call....saying Hey thanks for wasting my time....and he shouldnt make promises he couldnt keep......SO i decided i give up on the dating scene. Fuck it.!

Renee came to town to visit...and we had some kareoke fun...got loaded...well elagantly wasted. did some shopping...had some laughs...photoshoots...everytime she comes we always have a blast...why dont you just move in here and well be the golden girls...im telling ya im thinkin men are asshole losers...well all just grow old together and use and abuse the men we desire...haha...RIGHT! (im so funny sometimes) Come back baby! SOON! or hey i should come there.! In the pic i knew Renee wanted to grope me more but she CHICKEN...haha

Work is going to be super busy! Gotta find me a bartender. Boss said he was gonna put an add in the paper...RIGHT im thinking...i should just do it myself. i have to work steady till the 13th. Oh ill be a hoot to be around i bet.....i just wanna go somewhere december im thinkin. My Gf Alissa needs a partner in crime so save save save...thats all ill be doing.

Other than that just doing my thing and hoping one day my ship will come in...im not gonna swim out to find it though.....

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!

I cant believe that in 2 days ill be outta here ....sunday morning at 8am....leaving my world to go try something else...Tim will have me boating to flying his model airplanes...to canoe rides..hikes aroung the island...it will be like survivor but with a comfy place to sleep.. Im still kinda sick about having to shit in an outhouse for 3 weeks....EEEWWW I dont wanna mommy....lol The things we do for love eh! Well he did say he would make me a potty for the middle of the night and i though...aww..still gross. I stocked up on purell and bringing a nose plug.


Ill be missing the Seether concert...which i really hope someone buys my ticket....cause that would be a waste ...someone should enjoy it. And hey ladies ..when your doing pics...you should leave a spot so you can "insert cool Jnut here" winks...Have fun and hope you dont do anything i wouldnt do...so that leaves it WIDE OPEN!

So enjoy the rest of your summer and see you in SEPT!

So hey....

Nothing is really new this week...still in love...happy too.! i met an awesome guy...i really am having difficulties believing it. Tim came into my life at the best time. I didnt want anyone in my space i didnt want to have to do the relationship thing...and then when i fell in love with him that all changed. Im thinking one day...not anytime soon..i might even get married to him...if he should so choose to ask me. I would not say no....i finally found my pirince.....so to all the fricken frogs out there that i had to kiss....thank you for your company and so long!

Ive totally cut down on my drinking and i dont go party. just work and then I see Tim on my days off as time permits. I just want a normal life just like everyone else. i still dont want kids but Tim did mention that we could talk about the possibility of adopting a 6 or 7 year old....who knows...we just dont do crying and whining well.....winks.!

Leaving in 9 days to go to Tim's cabin in Ontario....small island off Lake Huron. Should be a blast. im gonna take alot ...ALOT of pics..cause there wont be really alot of things to do besides each other...wink wink...were gonna get alot of exercise though...Tim wants to take me all over the place in his boat. Im thinking as long as theres sunshine and Tim..ill be happy....i cant wait to get to know him more.....

So thats all i got for now....still smiling....shit eating grin is more like it!

Im leaving....

...on a jet plane...and unfortunalty i will be coming back again. Tim (my sexy hot boyfriend) bought me a ticket to go with him to his cabin this summer....were leaving August 17th and coming back begining of September. I cant wait either...if anyone needs a vacation its me....ive been at my job since Sept 2006 and have yet to take a holiday. So yes im due. Im still living at Tannis's house with the brats..wink wink.....The move to Calgary is still in the works.....its just on hold. I really wanna do that but i dont wanna just up and leave. I need to get to know my bf first alot more....

I guess i wont be going to see Seether with the girls ...which sucks ill miss a good time. But if i know the girls they will have just as much fun as if i was there...! Take lots of pics ladies.....

Renee i wanna say thanks again for making my page all pretty.....awww....its awesome! I appreciate it ! Come see us soon!

So i bought some new jeans yesterday....i love them...got them super cheeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Tannis is so hating me...but soon my dear these will be on your ass...till then you can just admire them from afar...he he..Thanks to Renee...i got this wonderful shot...haha thanks girl!

All is good....

3 times in one week...wow...ive been seeing alot of Tim lately..and guess what..its official...he's calling me his girlfriend now...introduces me as that..and its not even freeking me out...lol...good god what has this guy done to me...im not freeked out at all either....so far so good...

Guess what......

K...so i got a little camera happy with my big bad self...i got a little burnt sitting out on the deck..YOUCH!

in other news...I'm moving to Calgary...yes that's right...Moving outta Red Deer...Met a boy also...his name is Tim..he is a sweetheart..like no other guy Ive met by far...his personality is awesome...we get along perfect. Very easy on the eyes...and hes built like a brick shithouse...he's 38...he makes me feel happy inside....which i havent really felt in awhile about guys...so ill keep you posted on how that turns out.

The reason I'm moving to Calgary is to run a Bed and Breakfast...Elbow River Manor ...Google it...its a sweet pad...its up in Mount Royal ..the snooty area of Calgary...Ill live rent free and get paid to work there...and I'm thinking i don't wanna pass that up...plus ill get to see Tim more often...woot woot....I think ill be able to make it work..and meet all sorts of new people...from all over the world...its a 4 star B&B...and ill be running the whole show....kinda scary but I'm ready for the challenge...Bring it on I say....

My girl Tannis is going in for her surgery...and she will be laid up for awhile....she said shes gonna tan her ass ...so i guess when shes out there ill have to roll her over so she doesn't burn like this big dummy did...i hope all works out for her and she can feel better...I love her more than i love my own sister...shes helped me out so much and i just want her to know that i love her! and thank you my girl...

So i guess its time i go bake myself some more ..but I'm just getting my back this time...lol

Peace out!
Still smiling!

ITS FRIDAY!

Me and my girl Teresa....had a few drinks that night let me tell ya....lol


This is my cutie pie Monty...we have this whos the better player game going on.....lol.....hes that guy that a girl wants but doesnt want at the same time....did that make sence?
He reminds me of a little squirrel...lol little chubby cheeks....teehee...i just really like him...ALOT...he just doesnt know it!..and noone needs to tell him....you know who you are...

Thursday Smiles....

Where has the time gone...

K first of all...why the hell cant I upload a freeeeekin picture...its not workin dammit,....so i guess you will just have to listen to what i gotta say instead...haha
nothing much has changed ..besides i live at Tannis's now...boys are still dum dums...drinking myself into an early grave i tell ya...Renee was in town for the weekend ..and we got our drink on ...more than one occasion...we had a blast...the night we went to the vat...well that was probably one of the best times ive had in along time...just went ....left all the worries and problems at home...got there flirted with some boys ...drank our faces off....didnt give a rats ass who was watchin when i danced...and got shit faced...woooo...then ...closed the bar down...and hopped in a taxi and went home...to some yum leftovers...think we woke the whole house up..haha...drunk girls...so silly...

Met a really awesome girl...name is Asia....she rocks...my newest addition ti the girls club...just been hanging out shootin the shit and torturing the boys...cause they deserve it dammit....

Ill be workin my ass off the whole month of May cause this stupid ass bartender that i got has decided she deserves a vacation...well i hope she loves every minute of it....People think im wonderwoman...well i am..but tee hee....im gonna be workin with no days off..so im thinkin ill either be bitchy as hell or after im done workin the whole month of MAY payback is a bitch!....and i know she wont be able to handle it....stupid 20 year old girls....well enough ranting...haha...im gonna make the most of it and just have fun doing it...

Keep gettin stood up by these stupid boys...wtf...but im not gonna sit here and cry about it...lol...im gonna laugh it off!!

Chillin out!

So its been awhile since ive updated....this is me and the little sick man Vaughn....hes not feelin too good lately...but hes always got time for a photo shoot...lol....So cute....

Movin again....at the end of march..anyone wanna help me?..i dont have much stuff...winks...

Still single...and lovin it...i forgot how to date i think...get asked out alot...but its by 20 year olds...boo...they think im in my 20's its all good but i want a MAN..

id like to write more but my life isnt that intresting lately..with work and sleep..no time to put my beer goggles on...BOO...savin for my trip still...anyone wanna come with?..im sure we'd have fun winks....

Still smilin....oh ya baby!!

I need a vacation...

I seriously need to get away...im thinkin last minute...cheap as borche....just wanna lay my ass on the beach and relax....been on my mind for a while now...shitty thing is...i dont wanna go alone...but i will if i have too....i wanna save my money and go somewhere ive never been before....i can go to Puerta Vallarta for under 500 bucks...but ive been there...why go there again...it wasnt that great of a time....if i was to go anywhere again...it have to be Cuba...but i got Jamacia on the brain....just wanna go to try the ganga there...lol...and to see what Jamacia has to offer....lol..so ladies if anyone wants to get away..and get away sooner than later....HELLO...let me know..peace out !!!

New Years Photo's?

Hey....go to facebook and check out the pics there...too many to add here..we drank....we ate...we party'd our asses off....some of us even made complete ass's of ourselves...hey and i think it was me...just dont recall...oh well it was all good!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Soooooo,,....hope everyone had a blast new years eve..,,,i know i did...Tannis is a star...she threw a fondue party..made all sorts of yummy things to eat...she invited a bunch of people but they didnt bother to show up...RUDE...anyways girl your the best!! I invited Chad as my date...and he did a good job at showing up and playing the role...the clock struck midnight and we all kissed each other...well I kissed all the girls...cause you know if your wanting a kiss i got lots of those to give.

So my new years resolution is to get rid of all the negative people in my life...and to stop smokin...wish me luck..ha ha

BEST WISHES TO YOU ALL!