ive finally decided to update this stupid drama infested website. Ive finally made up my mind and not let people walk on my feelings anymore. ..and finally ive decided to come clean. I have a huge problem with how i deal with my problems. so im gonna change that..i also decided to clean up who i associate with. I bet they mean well and only have my best interests at heart. Mwhaha..RIIIIIGHT!
FYI time....i do have a place to live...not that its any of your business. Yeah i may be 35 and work at a poolhall..so what...i like it ..i enjoy it...i make decent cash doing it...whats the problem then.?!?!?! ( oh yeah and i didnt get demoted i took a small leave of absence...and now i have my position back...) I may not have a million dollars in the bank ..... a morgatged house...I may not have a husband or children..i may not live the life how society expects...this is my life and ill fucken live it how i choose! GOT IT! Ive been living on my own since i was 15 dont fucken judge me! You dont walk in my shoes you dont know who i am...
And as for my new friend Brenda that your all so fucken jealous of...shes the most beautiful soul i have ever met. She and i have a very strong relationship...she is one of a kind,..and has a heart of gold...before you go off spouting your vicious bitchyness about her ....the only thing im using brenda for is a shoulder to lean on when i get verbally attacked..a phone call when im sad...i think ive said enough...jealousy of a positive person in my life is really pathetic on your part.
I went to Mexico nov 7th to the 22nd...wow i never had such a good time on a vacation before...Cancun was a blur though i must admit..alot of tequila was drank and danced till dawn...Playa del Carmen was super relaxing. were going again in November. cant wait.
My Jenna bear is leaving soon for her tripn to Australia...that girl has a beautiful soul as well...she and i are becoming amazing friends. Im going to be so sad when shes gone. like a part of me will be missing. were going to keep in touch throughout her trip. I hope she has a blast and meets all sorts of interesting people.
I went to see a psychic and she told me im going to meet my "the one" within 6 months. he is 6'2 with brown wavy hair. hes not the typical jeanette man. he is your everyday average joe. Im going to move in with him withing the first 2 years and then were going to get married and get pregnant 3 months into being married. I almost sht my pants when she told me that...
she asks ..you have ruled out children...
im like ....yes i did
she says.....i see a pink bubble in your aura
im like....pretend you didnt see that...lol
she says and i see you getting married..3 months in your going to get pregnant
im like ...seriously
shes like this man ..do you know him?
im like np...the guy doesnt seem to fit any discription of anyone i know...
she says...youve met him once before...
im like ok..haha.
it was quite interesting what she knew about my family as well..my past...she knew about how my mother raised me and what her personality was like..she knew the number of brothers and sister i have...how my parents are both gone of the same desease. i was laying there and she told me about how i bottle up my feelings untill they rage inside me and i blow. and how i need to deal with my problems and not let people push me around. she says i have the same gift as her the problem is i dont know how to use it...she told me about my last boyfried and she even said his name...how he was the last person i should have been with. she said i cant believe it lasted that as long as it did and that no wonder im the way i am..i guess im really a bad judge of character..i should learn how to use my gift...
Other than trying to be a better person and living life im actually i feel so much better now that the "TOXIC" people are outta my life ha ha...i read that somewhere and i thought it was funny...maybe the toxic person is you and maybe you should try to stop all the hen pecking bullshit...be a friend...but most of all be real!
PEACE!
